home once again

Yeah i am home! Where is home these days? Hmmmm one has to wonder!!!
Yesterday I returned from being at Heritage for 7 weeks, and have been sleeping and thinking ever since!! :) It feels wonderful to be back in my own house and sleep in my own bed and just relax with no responsibility. Yet responsibility has a way of teaching you many hard things, and helping you grow!
I feel empty....
And have been wondering how to fill up again.
God fill my cup I pray!

Bible School Days!

I am now at Heritage Bible School as Dean of women!! AHHH not sure what that is to mean? ! :) The title sounds so .... ??? hmmm Well it is just like this i feel i have much to learn and grow in and i have a long way to go in my journey with God and suddenly i am stuck in this spot where... i don't have answers and i need them, and i don't have wisdom, but i need it, and so I feel ... i have so little to offer, so i say Lord take my loaves and fishes and use them to your glory and for your purpose.

Well we have made it through the first week of Bible School!! Praise the Lord!
We have a great group of students! And i am loving getting to know everyone and meeting all the new people! It is awesome to hear all the stories of each girl and to see their hearts. There are so many young people searching and seeking God and want what is right but there is such a hard pull there to follow the wrong spirit and the battle is just so strong! I am so thankful for my Creator and my Master to carry me and walk with me in the journey! Without him i would not be! So i continue to pray and i continue to cry out to Him for strength and for wisdom.

Homeward bound

Home? How will that be? America? What does it look like? What about all the poor friends i met? Is it fair for me to come back to my large house in vantage hills and drive down roads that are smooth? To go to church and have it be warm and we sit on benches that even have cushions? To have more than one sweater plus a few coats? Warm socks without holes? And then think i still need more things? And what do I do with all my things, other then store and fill a room in my house with what i don't use.   Why? Why? Why am I, are we so consumed  with things? And then we have Bible Schools to go to, bible studies to have, Sunday School, books to read... But what do i do with all of it? With all the teaching, all I have been given? I am afraid to admit what i to often do, just keep it all for myself. And don't use it as i could.
I just have much to process and think as i sit here at the airport and think of making this transition back to my world again!  

snow capped mountains

We have finally  been able to see all the mountains around us! It is totally incredible! 

 

 

Just another picture of the mountains. This day we just drove all around and went to all the view points that we could. We just could not get enough of the beautiful views! God's creation is so amazing. I am having a hard time taking it all in! It is pictures you would see in magazines and my small camera just doesn't seem to get the big picture. I want to just stand in awe so many times just looking and trying to grasp the beauty of it all!

And just us!!!!

Manju's village

THE SMALL PATH WE CLIMBED UP THE MOUNTAIN!!!

Manju's family lives in this little hut. One hut for the kitchen and the other had 2 rooms and very small. In that village they were considered homeless. Very sad situation. Manju has one little sister and one brother. Her brother is at an orphange.

The group of followers we had the whole time we were there!!

Down by the river...

OH and having the privalage of eating with our hands. And yes i did too!!! FUN FUN FUN!!

Manju the girl my sister is adopting came from this small village that we visited. Wow that was an experience!! We drove back in 2 hrs. The first half of travel was on decent roads, and the last half was on dirt roads with many potholes. And then when we got to the village we had to hike up the mountain to find where her mother lived. And that was amazing. We hiked about 15 minutes out of town looking for the place, asking as we went along. The path we had to walk on was not wider than 6-10 inches!! And straight up!! We met up with her family and then we walked around the small village. Walked down to the river with her mother and her little sister. We then went and bought some gifts for the family... rice and some clothes and such like. We had this big crowd of followers the whole time we were there. It was so interesting seeing yet another part of the world. But they were so poor... it was so sad, seeing all the dirty faces and sad looks in little childrens eyes, knowing they don't have much of a future outside of this small town. And then wondering how many other villages around i have not even seen who are a lot worse off. Where is my heart of compassion?I want to save them all. How can I? I feel so overwhelmed. How can i help so many? And why was i born where i was? It could have been me here in this village. It could have been you. What am I / you doing with what we have been given?

hospital visit

Today we visited the hospital. Lindy and i took a bunch of baby clothes and handed them out to mothers with new babies or ones having babies. It was incredible the smells and sights. Nothing clean and dirt everwhere. There were a lot of patients. Many just laying on the floor on mats. One lady in labor and sitting on the floor with many people around her. Seemed like her family and extended family and friends where there to  help or watch!! hmmmm don't know how these people survive. They seriously would think our hospitals to be palaces. Yet so many unhappy and unsatisfied people in America.  Why? We have so much and been given so  much. And why was i born where i was and not here or in some other land? We are taught so much on cleanliness and just so many things that i can't even begin to all say. I see so much each  day and am again so thankful for my heritage.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EVERYONE!!! Thank God for all you have been given.

Finally some photos, but the night is late and the body is tired and the internet is slow so just 3 tonight!!

A beautiful view from some lookout spot. You feel  on top of the world here! You live totally on the mountain side. And they are steep mountains!! So driving around is a bit of a trust experience and don't look down and hope the car coming gives you space!!!! Oh and all the stuff that looks like rocks, that is houses and villages!







My precious niece and nephew!! Oh how I am loving being with them!!  







This man we see when we go to town... he holds a cup with some liquid and begs. So sad... he had flies all around him and his hands and skin on his stomache was all caked with dirt and filth.